It's all crazy! It's all false! It's all a dream! It's alright.

“God doesn’t call us to be comfortable. He calls us to trust Him so completely that we are unafraid to put ourselves in situations where we will be in trouble if He doesn’t come through.”

-Francis Chan, Crazy Love

I will be in trouble if God doesn't come through for me. But for once in my life, I am not worried about the future at all. It is not my burden anymore, my life... it's God's. For as long as He needs me on Earth, He will keep me on Earth. And if I just listen to what He's trying to tell me, my life will fulfill its purpose. So what reason would I ever have to worry? Some might believe that giving everything up to God would make them too vulnerable, but can we really afford not to give everything up to Him? The way I see it, the only way I can be absolutely certain that God will provide for me everything I need on Earth is if I am doing His work. If I depended on someone to do a task for me, I would make sure that he or she was well fed, able, and comfortable enough to carry out the task. How could I depend on someone who wasn't physically able to be dependable? So it is with God. How could he let us starve while we are working for Him?

My whole life I have known that God made me to do something great. So has He made all of us! For some reason I have always carried with me the inexplicable notion that someday I will be doing something... dangerous and unimaginable. But I know that just the act of living is dangerous. Everyday it may feel "dangerous" to let God be in control-- but I like this feeling! I don't want to be comfortable. I want to be radical. God doesn't conform to society, so why should I? And is it even possible? I realize now that by living life radically for God, something unimaginable will happen-- whatever God wants. Just the sheer act of giving up control means that whatever happens will be unimaginable, at least by me. Because what I imagined my life looking like is NOT going to happen. And I'm so relieved! I no longer have to worry about my shortcomings or how I'm going to get where I want to be... Now that I don't want what I wanted, I know that God will make sure what HE wants happens. And I'll be fine. I'll be better than fine. And though I thought I was going to feel uneasy about changing my life course for what I think God wants, the truth is that I have never felt such peace in my life. And that's how I know it's right.